hello my friends
It's the first day of our torture.

Chinese & English paper one
I can't say that i did really bad in it.
But i am no where close to doing well.

Blah
Fuck sia.

Actually it isn't that bad.
Apart from the fact that the questions i choose are generally different from the rest of the people, it somehow also means that the examiners won't be able to compare that much and hence i MIGHT have a higher chance of getting better marks.

Oh wells.
During exam
i sleep
i slept
And i went back to sleep again

For english paper i slept for around 1hr of the 1hr 45mins given
For chinese i slept for around 50mins of the 2hrs given
Even though i keep slping, but still very tired.

Thanks to some teachers who kept waking me up and telling me to check over and over. Heck.

So in anycase.
It's not that i think or write fast. The thing is that i keep writing. My ideas match the speed of my writing, so i keep writing and hence i finish usually the earliest. And the marks would probably not be that good but heck lah, what's done is done. lol

Tmr labour's day. Finally there's a proper holiday for us to slack. I so look forward to tmr. But at the same time i wish that tmr won't come so that i can always slack. lol.

oh yea
i found a new way to suan people.

"you're made a girl.
but somehow god seems to have made a mistake"

OH WELLS.
Yay. was able to dl alot of my favourite anime songs. Now i have something new to listen to. Hais.

Oh yea.
I'm using the school laptop now, and i also dual boot this little thing with a Linux system as well. Hah.
I hope that i can remove it smoothly when the need arise. Somehow we have hogged this stupid computer for quite a long time le sia. I feel sad for the sch but heck. Went home normally and slack.

Went down to blade alittle.
Yes.
Yay.
I'm somehow finally able to do ABIT of cess slide. Damn, it's so fucking hard, always do halfway become vega powerslide. (scared fall mah) but hais. nvm, a few more times and i'll master it! The stupid wheels are wearing off so quickly. Time to get new ones, but lazy.

and i just feel like writing this again
And again i know that it'll offend many people but heck, this is what i think.

God, or rather jesus don't exist.
If i never rmb wrongly, the bible is written uh, 3000years ago or so?
And erm, china history dates back to about close to 5000years ago.
And hence i can clearly conclude that from the egyptians who existed, uh, about 7000years ago?
I'm not so sure but in anycase it's longer than the stupid bible.
Okay so you see.
those people in the past worshipped?
Animals.
Cats for the egyptions.
Dragons and some mystic beings for the chinese, probably lions or something.
Those are gods and jesus to them
But then jesus suddenly appear out of no where.
From what i know, jesus came down to clear our sins, in other words, god was with us all the time even when jesus came.
So what happened to god before jesus came?
No a single fucking presense of him was written. In ancient writings, i don't rmb coming across a document which states that god was there 7000years ago. I know that at that time there where animal gods, there were some kind of greek mythology. Everyone believed that the sun is the god of something on a charriot riding a horse or something. That was a FACT at the time. but people proved them wrong because it doesn't exist.
hence, the fact that jesus exist is a FACT at this moment. Until someone totally proved that he doesn't exist. Even if there is an absolute way of proving it, no one will ever try to prove it as there are millions if not billions of people believing it. who the heck so free go find trouble?

In anycase, it doesn't seem to me that THAT god is with us before he send jesus down. Besides, even if there WAS god, he say he only got one son you believe ah. Okay lah, if you say only one son, that's because he made that "virgin" gave birth on earth. Who knows how many "one son(s)" he have on other planets. =.=

ah whatever.

ah
exams are coming
tmr ley.
now look at the time
i haven't study yet. I'M COOL.
LOLOL.

blah, fuck lah.
i'm going to study le.
shit i'm going

Oh i'm so fucked up by the other guy.
I'm like totally thrashed. =.=
serve, BOOM.
Gone,
BAM.
gone.
It's doubles.
BOOM.
another one gone.

after that traumatizing experience.
My teammate(uncle), came up to tell me.
"oh, he former national player"
i wanted to tell him
"EH FUCK, TELL ME THAT EARLIER AT LEAST MORE PREPARED RIGHT"

walau.
not even enough time for me to react =.=
Or rather, I REACTED. But I FUCKING CAN'T REACH THE BALL.
IT'S SO DAMN FRIGGING FAST AND CORNER. WALAU.
DAMN HUMILIATED.

Now i have to console myself.
(he's a former, he's a former)
Well, at least i got thrashed by someone who is of a different level. don't feel that bad i guess. haha.

Dammit
Dammit
Dammit

oh yea.
bought a headphone. Got a W series headphone to go with my K530i
well, why did i do so?
Here's the reason for nubs.
basically, almost all current up-to-date phones are able to play a 192kb/s quality song out perfectly. Basically, if you think your phone's music quality sucks, it's just the headphone.

I didn't research much up on this but based on what i know.
W series is of course, SLIGHTLY better music quality.
Better control over your playlist and music selection. Probably a cooler UserInterface
K series is more of a general purpose. An all-rounder. With a W series headphone, you won't be able to sense out much difference in the quality. oh, one obvious diff is that W series phone is able to produce more bass.
CyberShot series.
Basically, the amount of MegaPixels isn't actually that much of a difference. For a phone, how many MP more or less only determines how BIG your image can be. For the cybershot series, they (i think) placed a "camera-type" of chip. In other words, it's able to process the image, deinterlace, sharpen or auto focus better. Hence the image won't be that pixelated nor grained. And the MP yea, decides the size of the image.

Basically a normal image is about 200~300dpi in detail. So. yea.

Oh wells. This is what I know, correct anot i also not so sure myself. SHOULD be correct. correct me if i'm wrong. haha.

damn i wanted to say smth but too tired liao le.

damn i'm tired.
oh yea. i forgot to post this up

XIYING,
SHE WENT INTO A BOY'S TOILET
nah it ain't anything bad.
I PUSH HER IN ONLY WHAT!

BESIDES. SHE FOUND A TREASURE INSIDE.
tada~!
MING CHIANG PEEING. =DDDD
i watched all of it happen in slow motion. She stumbled in, she turned, she saw, she did a double take, and she screamed. i heard a faint scream from MC.
and MC suddenly came out, and look at me in the eye.
"fook you"
he said.

oh wells. everyone gained something so it's fine i guess. =O

blah blah.
lazy type.

ah.
i'm tired.

Candies carries the taste of happiness
If you suck on it, a flower will blossom in your mouth

Hah.
I'm currently watching
H2O - Footprints in the sand


It's a really beautiful story.
well, that's if you're those kind of person who has the time to just sit down and watch and enjoy a slow storyline.

Well. It ain't any kind of perverted anime. Just a very normal drama/romance series with a unique plot. Well, the suspense is there but i think they overdid it alittle. Too much questions shrouded in my head. well, those answers are slowly revealed as the shows goes on. It's a pretty nice thing but. Hmm.
It kinda lacks the dynamic punch to it.
but oh wells.
it's pretty good overall.
7/10 i guess.

If you have the time check it out.

Yea. Been starting back on the aniems that i've missed out over the 2 or 3months that i didn't watch animes at all.

Caught up with Bleach, Naruto Shippuuden
Then finished Mobile Suit Gundam 00
Shakugan haven't dl yet. Tio liscensed liao, abit hard to get. Hmm...
Oh wells.
Exams are really coming damn quickly.
Tmr's our chinese oral le.
Damn what am i doing at this time.

oh yea. Ytd and today afternoon no mood post. Or rather, got mood post, but got occupied with other stuffs to do.

Blah.
Didn't revise up on the chinese oral. Well, there isn't much to revise on. but at least get prepared for the worst heh?

But hell.
I totally flunk my maths class test.
aMaths, almost all dunno how to do.
eMaths, know abit then forget abit
Then after school got eLit test somemore.
Damn, i hate having 3tests on one day.

But that ain't the point.

I wanted to complain out loud.
What the fuck is wrong with this school.
I mean, even the teachers are seems to have a screw lose in their head.
What's with giving a demerit to that person when she's just lending a book to him? I DON'T GET IT.
no seriously, there is something wrong somewhere. I just can't take it down like this. It's wtf? Just because a group of people did something
you have to give 5demerit each?
Eh comeon, you gave out like 50+ demerits on one day. If you're telling me that you're just upholding discipline, TECHNICALLY-WISE, YES. YOU ARE.
But in real life and in practical application.
This ain't gonna do any fuck. ya hear that? And if you're gonna disagree with what i'm saying here. Yes by all means disagree but i certainly have done nothing wrong.

As much as you will condemn what we've done is wrong, i certainly do not see any fault in me trying to state out what i'm not happy about you.

Scumbags hah?
Oh whatever. I guess somepoeple just likes to take the piss out of everyone. Ego is good, but it ain't gonna bring you anywhere far. Nah come on. I hate it when my instincts are so accurate.
Damn, my generation of people is getting screwed up by everyone around them. Teachers, friends, family. So far i don't think i've seen many who is able to juggle around these 3main areas properly. So oh wells. maybe it's what you call puberty. But as compared to the other generations. Somehow our batch, when i say our batch, i don't mean my school. But like everyone else. It's really =.=ll

Oh wells. I guess i'll stomach my words for now. Time to sleep. =/

Labels: anime, daily rants

I heard a story.
A wonderful story.
A life story
A story that makes sense.
But a story that has no link.

I grew up in DHS.
After that went to Victoria JC.
blahblah.
Then i went to army.
I was in the Land Army Force.
Posted to the Bomb Defuse Squad.
However, i was the signaler hence i don't defuse bombs.
After i finished NS
While waiting to get into Uni.
I went to teach Nanyang Girl's CHINESE ORCHESTRA.
After that, i went to U
And studied on Electrical Engineering.
However, on the last year.
I switched to IT.
After i graduate.
I went to teaching as a career.

I MEAN.
NOT THAT THERE'S ANYTHING WRONG WITH THIS.
BUT WHAT EVER HE HAS DONE. I SEE NO LINK.
you go bomb defuse squad, but you don't defuse bomb.
you army come out teach orchestra.
then you go on the electrical blah blah.
But last year go learn IT. =.=
Then after learning all that
you come out be teacher.
I MEAN.
OH WTF. I SEE NO LINK.

blah
i'm too tired to think.

This is kinda turned into something pretty amusing.

My table.
Is now.
Pretty much not what you would call a table, a table.
It certainly has the looks of an ANGEL and the figure of a DEVIL.
I mean. Oh wtf.
Roughly 16 different people have drawn my table.

It's beyond hope.
Well.
It came along with some.
hate messages with some other girl's name on it.



THANKS ALOT FUCKFACES.

Yep. It dawn upon me of an idea and i probably will take a whole year to make it come true but oh wells. Let's see if i'm able to keep the passion going.

Oh damn. I came across this email about blah blah god thingy.
anyways. there's a sentence, which reminded me of this. I heard it somewhere before i forgot where.

Isn't it funny how people are unable to believe the truth yet believe the lie so easily?
The answer is simple, the lie is usually what you want to hear.

For some reason. As times goes by. I find myself lying lesser. In the sense that. I do not purposely think of something to lie about. When someone asks me something, i reply them straight in the face.
If i don't like it, i say i don't.
If i'm not sure i say maybe.
If i want it i say yes.
In a way the answers just comes out from my mouth without me thinking. Somehow this has caused abit of problems at times, but somehow it's quite relaxing because you know that you ain't hiding anything from anyone. Well, in the sense that you're not using any lie to cover up for any secret you have. I'll just tell them that i don't want to tell them.

OH wells.
School is the same old boring stuff happening over and over again.
Well, i can't play around with you guys today that much cuz my left hand injured. Fell down too many times on that same side. Absorbed all the impact lol. Now bend also pain. =.=
Oh wells. As long as it doesn't fracture i'm okay with it.

Oh yea. My chinese teacher may call up my parents. Just because i show her buay song face what. Besides, i'm just telling her the truth. Got wrong meh
I forgot to do my work
So i said i forgot.
What's wrong with that.

Oh wells. I'm going to compile the book of.

"Time and tide waits for no man"

Study group again.
LK couldn't wake up.
So me n pam.
blah blah blah. I didn't much did my maths hw. but. =.=ll

Blah.
so anyways
after the study grp.
oh wait
i saw smth damn interesting today. I saw how the GB operates. and it kinda amuses me. I think maybe fridays i will stay back and watch the UG march around.
It's serious damn amusing when they say smth like get up or smth then like all of a sudden in 1sec, POOF. All comes up. Damn fast.

oh wells.
and there's this person's birthday. Like out of the blue they suddenly sing happy birthday. But. It's like
Normal speed is smth like this
. . . . . . . .
Their speed is like
...................
Damn frigging fast.
And sounds damn robotic. lol oh wells.

anyways, after the study thing. LK came my house again. Basically did nothing much. Showed him a couple of videos. Some animes, then hmm. Played Wolfteam for awhile. okay, maybe more than awhile but that ain't the point.
After that.
We went down to the carpark.
Taught him how to skate.
i must say, he has talent for it lol. Picked it up pretty fast. But feel a few times. Damn, he had a super hard fell and i bet his bones vibrated throughout. lol.

Blah. It was pretty fun to see how he moved. But oh wells. Didn't take any pictures. Since well. It'll be pretty bad if i did. xDoh wells.
Not much content today.

practice practice
training training.

Morning wake up.
Watched anime abit. Then went down to train. (30mins)
Came home blah blah

Then around evening. Went down again.
1hr+ train.

In the carpark so that no one sees me.
It's been such a frigging long time since i've seriously go and exercise that. So my leg kana muscle ache at the area which kinda sucksss.

I wonder if i should tell people about what i'm training for. But oh wells. Maybe not yet. Just know that it's not anything big. Just something pretty stupid. For the sake of fun. And. Well, safety in a sense. If you want to really want to know then ask me in person. lol.

damn. I hate wear and tear. Damned. I may have to change it sometime soon. lol.

oh wells. I'm going to do it.
managed to do "vega powerslide" & "180". "parallel slide" still sometimes can sometimes cannot. Oh wells. Will train again when i feel like it tmr. Tamade, perspire like f today.

Ah. Study study
MYE coming so soon i haven't started yet. Hais. Hais.
HAIYA.
DAMMIT LAH. WHY SO MANY TEST.

okay. i'm addicted to training ________
blah. nothing comes of my brain

Friday.
A day where i'm most free.
Well. In a sense.

In anycase.
Straight after i come home.
Okay lah, i watched finish Mobile Suit Gundam 00
Which kinda leaves me hanging with the last part saying
"STAY TUNE FOR SEASON 2"
or smth like that.

woops. forgot to click publish oh wells

I'm pissed again
by 2 teachers.
First of.
Rm Ngo

Why 2F?
OH YOU DIDN'T LISTEN TO MY LESSON IZZIT?
No, i was wondering why it's |2|F
WHY AH. COME FORWARD.
And he showed me the stupid equation which doesn't explains anything. So i'm like. "orh okay..."
And he started scolding me.
And he asked.
"WHAT'S F?"
"uh, force?"
"NO, YOU OBVIOUSLY DIDN'T LISTEN TO MY LESSON."
"so what is it?"
"GO FIGURE OUT YOURSELF."
So awhile later, on the board, he said, this is your force. (downward)
I MEAN, I WAS DAMN WTF. EH FUCK YOU KNNBCCB.
And before that, i asked why 2?
he scolded me.
He asked me "WHY YOU THINK 2?"
"because it's the length of the rod?"
"YOU'RE WRONG"
"THEN WHAT?"
He never answer me.
Later on another question.
The rod is 1.2M.
And he wrote.
blahblah = 1.2F
EH FUCK YOU CHEEBYE. I SAY WHAT THING WRONG HUH. YOU WHERE NOT HAPPY YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE. KNN SIA. FOR NOTHING SAY I WRONG.
Fucking pissed by him.
esp when he said
"I DON'T MIND YOU GUYS ASKING QUESTIONS, JUST DON'T BE LATE FOR CLASSES"
YA RIGHT, I ASK YOU THEN YOU COME SCOLD ME. OOOO I CAN SENSE YOUR PROFESSIONALISM.
Awhile later, Chinese.

Another Ngo
For nothing.
Keep scolding us.
Compare us with other people. Say what, never celebrate her birthday and piss her off somemore. Tell us that "OH YOU'RE SO DISOBEDIENT, DON'T LISTEN TO WHAT I SAY" Pissed off, she sits down and make us do the compo on our own. Obvious none of us wanted to do. Awhile later she bragged about OH, MY STUDENTS DID THIS THIS AND THIS. I MISS MY PREVIOUS CLASS SO MUCH, THAT' THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A GOOD AND A BAD CLASS. THE ATMOSPHERE REALLY CHANGE ALOT.

SHE'S LIKE TOTALLY PUTTING US DOWN WHEN WE DIDN'T REALLY DO ANYTHING. Fine lah, you're a good teacher, you good. We lousy lah hor. Then you so pissed for what. Not like we do anything wrong to you. Stop being a hysterical bitch. Not happy complain to school lah! Split the class. Then have lesser people. GO LAH. Fucking irritated by her.
Now you want us to know your birthday when you don't even tell us. You expect us to GO FIND OUT YOUR FUCKING BIRTHDAY WHEN YOU'RE LIKE SCOLDING US EVERYDAY. YEA RIGHT. SO YOU THINK ALL THE STUDENTS LIKE YOU IZZIT.

Oh dammit. They just totally ruined my mood today. =.=

last two lessons teacher never come, talked abit, then sleep.
And one thing that i think i've said before but i want to say it again.
Not that bleach is really bad or what. BUT THE STORY MAKES NO SENSE. IN THE SENSE THAT, THE WORLD THEY TALKED ABOUT DOESN'T HAVE A LAW OF EQUILITY.

Here's what.
You die or whatever, you go to Soul Society. So you're a soul. You're stuck in that form forever until you reincarnate or something.
So.
WHY THE FUCK ARE THERE CHILDHOOD STORIES ABOUT THE SHINIGAMI?
The story of them GROWING UP.
When they are still KIDS.
YA RIGHT. THEY CAN GROW MEH? HUH, SOULS CAN GROW HUH?
Oh fine, so if they can grow, how long huh. A few thousand years? fuck that, if they can grow means that they can die, they die then go where? It's like the shinigami, you die you go where? Soul society is "heaven for souls" So you're a what? You just disappear? No law of equility.

And like i've said before. It's not US who needs to change our attitude, it's that "chna" that needs to change her attitude. You can't go around expecting that everyone would adapt to your teaching style. As a teacher you have the responsibility to ensure all the students are able to understand and follow through your lessons. Yes of course, it's also our responsiblity to listen attentively and do our work. But if we can't adapt to your teaching style... What's the whole damn point forcing it on us? You think by forcing us we would listen?

Like what i've mentioned sometime ago

We're like a ruler.
You push us abit,
We bend and listen.
You push us even more,
We'll bounce back at you.
You push us too much,
we'll break.

As much as teachers want us to be conscious of the efforts they are contributing in teaching us. WE also want you to be conscious of our efforts in our studies. "oh we forgot" A common excuse. But it's common. We can't help it.
Think of it this way.
You're probably teaching only one subject.
True you have many classes. Let's take it as 6 classes.

We got.
7~9subjects.
Every subj we have to do different things. Adopt different methods, bring different things. It's inevitable that we would forget sometimes. You people have gone through this as well. Why can't you understand?
Leniency is something people exploit
But it is also something we can't live without.

damn. i'm restless once again

Labels: daily rants

Yep. Had our show and share today
but before i start of with anything. I have a very
Complaining feeling right now so i shall write.

sm ahcn:
everyone thinks that you're a virgin but i think that you're not. Why? Because even though you looked like some fuckity ass, i swear that you're DAMN SCRWED UP.
Why the fuck are you scolding us when we ain't even doing anything wrong. why the fuck are you scolding people when they are listening to you? Why the fuck are you scolding him when he's just helping his friend correcting his mistake? Why the fuck are you tell us. "I WANT 100% ATTENTION" when you're like fking pissing us off all the time?
stop telling us to take down our screensaver faces. If you don't like it then don't look. JUST TEACH.
So it's our fault that you're progressing slowly. So it's our fault that you're repeating the same stuffs over and over again
Don't give me that
OOO I'M JUST DOING MY JOB.
Now take that fuck face off your head.
I want it to be filled with compassion
Not some fucked up attitude.

okay blah.

today show & share
went pretty well. here's the video.



Love it hate it you decide. I just like it. haha.

Labels: daily rants

orh.
tmr Show & Share liao
Tmr got chinese test
I'm pretty much done wiht setting up my desktop.

Of course, there are still some stuffs that i'm not happy about the desktop but i guess i'll just leave it this way for now.
Here's a screenshot of my current desktop



yep.
no complains about it if it's like this. Though there are still stuffs that don't really go my way. I'm like reading up like crazy and stuffing in everything from the internet about GNU/Linux system. Blah.

I'm hungry.
Dinner's not here yet.
In class.
Hais, it's quite interesting how neo placed so much trust in me. Even though i got a 0 for CA1 he seems to trust me that i'm able to understand every fking thing he teaches. okay lah, i mean, i DO understand, not immediately though. Need to ask people =.=

Have to press the reset button on my mind again.

Getting clogged by other more unimportant stuffs. Somehow my motivation is in a on-off situation. I feel like doing work when i'm not doing work, but when i started on doing work, i lose that mood to do.

But in anycase, IT'S AN IMPROVEMENT SINCE I WON'T EVEN FEEL LIKE DOING AT ALL.

In school... Nothing much happened.
Oh yea! Yingxuan's birthday. Damn her and jo, smudged cake on me, and other people as well.

Ate 2 slices i think. I'm not too good with creamy stuff, 2 slices already made me feel like throwing up lol. oh wells. another amazing acheivement is that i ACTUALLY MANAGED to make suwern understand a maths question. But according to statistics, she's probably gonna forget it like. in 4days' time. We'll see. IF SHE REMEMBERS, THEN I'VE PROBABLY CREATED A LEGEND. HAHAHA.

3C's as boring as always. Not that it's a bad class. It's just b-o-r-i-n-g. No one ever really does any thing stupid. Well, that's kind of a good thing in a sense but argh. We're surrounded by boring teachers. Not that they are bad, they are just b-o-r-i-n-g.

Oh wells. I heard that teachers have been snooping around people's blog pretty oftenly these days. HELLO WHOEVER YOU ARE IF YOU'RE HERE.

orh one more thing.
I won't go for remedials. Give me greenforms, call my parents or whatever, i'll rather study at home. I just fking hate the idea of staying back after school for extra lessons. I mean, you make us sit for 7hours, you want me to sit for another hour listening again? No sorry i don't think i have that kind of patience nor mood.

I had though of a pretty few many funny stuffs, but my memory failed me once again and i'll leave it at this.

why does it feels that everyone else is moving while i'm just standing?
blah.
Another boring day passed.
Somehow i seriously don't look forward to school anymore. Each day feels more and more like an endless cycle of the same period of time. The endless loop of the colorless days as it passed by.

To put it bluntly, i'm bored. It's not like there isn't anything for me to do. But i have probably tried most of the things that i wanted to do. The rest of the stuffs I either don't have the ability to do or lack the money to do so.

I want to train on photoshop. Yet there is no project or whatsoever that needs it. There isn't an urge to create a drawing out of my wonderland either.
I want to train on video editing, but i don't have the sources and have totally no use for doing something like that.
I want to train on programming, but it's too hard and it takes up too much time. Not like i don't want to do it but i just can't concentrate with so many things just popping up in my head.
I want to train my body, i like exercising, yet it's so boring doing it alone, i can't be bothered to just go downstairs and run
I want to train on my soccer, but my shoes spoils easily, i want to quit soccer, but yet i like it, i'm stuck
I want to train on inline-skating, yet, there isn't much of a suitable place and i do not really know of any other techniques.
I want to be good at dancing, yet i really can't be bothered to lean.
I want to be good at my studies, yet the teachers and parents gives me that constant irritation that i can't concentrate.
I want to release the stress within me, but every time i'm in the midst of doing so, there'll be somebody or something that plugs the stopper right back in.
I want to relax for a while, but because of the fucked up society i'm forced to wake up at 6 and go home at 3.
I want to just lie down and rest, yet the responsibilities and desires drives me on without mercy.
I want to just keep my head cool and think like everyone else, yet the self-conceited me thinks that i'm higher.
I want to just be able to take hold of myself and look at everything else again.

In short, i'm bored, i'm pissed, and i want to run away.

now i'm currently facing a pretty interesting problem which i think other people MAY face. I'm currently stuck between my normal and inner self. Which one is the one that controls me? Is the normal me me, or is the inner me me? Or is it just another self that i created to be my role model, the one that i want to be?
I don't know i don't know i don't know.

Can time just stop for like a week to let me think through.

Basically, i'm not having mood swings.
I'm rather restless and irritated.

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Don't get it?

FKUCFKUCFKUC
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yep
a guy called andrew.
pissed me off.
Shalln't dwell on the details. Just rmb this you fucking knnbccb.

Besides, i just dozed off. So i don't feel so irritated now. Blah. Supposed to revise on my physics but slacked all the way instead. I need more willpower.
Or rather, i need to get sufficient sleep before diving into a new adventure.

and again i got myself another OS to boot from my thumbdrive. Don't ask me what i do that for i have no idea myself, well, it doesn't hurt to experiment around here and there does it?

ah.

rewatching Inukami!
Yep, it's still a damn nice show to me. With abit of ecchiness but never going over the line. (well, even though i kind wished they will go over the line abit). And damned. If i don't do smth abt my hair i'm bound to be caught tmr. =.=

and yea.
i just asked my mum to cut the back for me
Now it's damn short.
and she affirmed the fact with me again that she sucks at cutting. or that her sissors sucked.
Blah whatever. I'm not looking forward to school

blah.
blah blah

okay
first off.
I deleted my Linux Kernel.
And then, i repartition my drive.
And install Linux again.
First.
300GB for Linux is... just too much.

So after about an hour or so.
Through various methods.
I realised that i couldn't merge partitions together. Not through what i've done anyways. So now i have. 3 Partitions in a sense.
1 that is about 145GB.
1 that is about 325GB.
And the last one that is 10.1GB
Which is my Linux System
So why is it so small?
Basically.
4GB is bare minimum for system to run.
8GB is comfort zone. the extra 2GB is for me to dl stuffs.
Since after i DL i would transfer them to the other partition anyways. One thing good is that Linux somehow is able to optimize network connections better. My bit torrent speed can maintain around 40~60kb/s without me tweaking any settings. Which is pretty good.

Normal DL Speeds can go up to 1MB/s as well.
Compared to my previous 700kb/s cap.
yea, a 300kb/s improvement is more than welcomed.



bleah. i'm eating roti prata tmr. yay.

Sorry Dale

yea. i caused his psp to get confiscated yesterday.
=X
But don't know what i can do. =/

quite a few things happened yesterday. Pretty many things crashed down suddenly and there were too many things to consider about. But oh wells.
Feel alot better today le.

blah.
i... think post later

oh yea.
I lagged for two years
Lol
Just watched Step Up 1

Yea, dled it last night
Aw it's really nice.
And the step up 2 also dled
Jumper also.
But the quality isn't good.
I'll find other sources. haha. No point watching a lousy quality show if you're downloading. Because that beats the purpose of downloading in the first place. If you want to dl, dl high quality audio and video, if not you might as well stream. That's what the web is for.

Oh wells. Still having alittle problems with the XP ~ Linux kinda thing. But oh wells. The next on my list to buy is probably a new motherboard or monitor. Probably the monitor. Let's see how things go huh.

oh wells.
School is as usual.
Ponned assembly. For the
New Media Arts
thingy again. Went back to innova JC, honestly. It's good. Why? Cause it doesn't take a long time for me to go home from there. Oh wells. Another warrior enters the great battle. Another target for me to shoot at. Verbally. Damn you.
And danm chowyen for the stupid poem and for drawing my table again
faaaagggg.
Life's getting more restless.
Life's getting more interesting
Life's getting more irritating
Life's getting no where.

Blah.
Here's a new thing i've created today
well, i used it on xiying. Since she's that WONDERFUL warrior.
So here's the convo:

Eh, xiying! Actually you damn chio one ley.
if not for your face, body, hands and legs.
yea, you'll be pretty much perfect.

awwwww. I love that. =D
off to sleep. zZz

finally.
It rained
In this fucking hot season
It finally rained
At the wrong time
Blah
i'm tired.
Really tired.
It's been a long time since i've moved my body.
Oh wells, as long as i don't get muscle aches i guess it's pretty fine by me

And yes.
DAMN YOU JOSEPHINE.
SHE FKING BITE MY HAND
NOW MY FINER GOT BITE MARK.
DAMN YOU.
ZZZ

are you a dog or something! =.=!!

blah. fatigue is seeping deep within me.
I'll end it here

Yea.
There's this quiz that. Almost too perfect fit me.

You Are 93% Tortured Genius

You totally fit the profile of a tortured genius. You're uniquely brilliant - and completely misunderstood. Not like you really want anyone to understand you anyway. You're pretty happy being an island.

oh wells.
Am i that weird
many people tell me that
"you're the weirdest person that i can tolerate"
I mean. Is that a good or bad thing
Well, i don't see what i do is weird.
Maybe just that what i find interesting is probably not that common
Or maybe it's just TOO common and that i am able to express it out ever-so-commonly that makes me weird. I don't know.

About an article i read up at some website. A guy from the Vista Production team is quitting microsoft to join another company. Here's a few comments about the article i find pretty interesting.

He probably left due to 2 things, firstly that Vista was awful, and secondly fed up getting emails telling him how bad it really is

Why would he leave now, when it's getting better, what with SP1?
That's a silly thing to say.

You can put icing and sprinkles on crap but it is still crap.

Yes, what you said about SP1 making Vista better is silly.

Better. Not best, not great, not wonderful.

Better.

If he wanted to leave for that reason he would have done it a couple of weeks after Vista launched.

A lot of people like Vista. But negative comments are always the most vocal :)

Yea. I find them all pretty true.
But oh wells.I'm just too tired to think of anything..

Oh yea. eMaths test.
No preparations or whatsoever. Didn't even see it coming.
But somehow. My memory worked PERFECTLY well today. I mean, everything just came magically to my mind.

Hence i realised two things
Either my memory works when i'm wide awake.
Or.
Due to the fact that my memory worked, i'm happy and became awake. LOL

Yea i'm at the stupid school computer lab over and over again
for a millionth time i'm here wasting our time
Yea.
Eng teacher not here.
Pon school again. not bad but.
Quite sianed. Quite sianed.

Yawns
aiya wdv
jamus gonna use com. lol

and again i embarked on a mission
Be it pointless.
Meaningless
Stupid
Waste of time.
Least it's interesting.

i really seem to post more oftenly.
or maybe i'm just bored and refuse to do my work.
And damn.
I just have to agree with what matthew say.
I simply love his crude use of language

“I hate and (yet) I love them”

I seriously feel like dropping out of school, get into Damai Secondary. Barely pass my O levels , then go to Temasek Polytechnic. Get a job, start the boring life. Fuck.

I hate it, you took them from me. My smile, my passion. You gave reasons, which ain’t any. The fact that you’re what you’re simply serves more than a reason. No it ain’t a reason. I’m a fucking introvert, I don’t really need anyone in my life. Just get the fuck out of this. I don’t really understand who’s the stubborn one, me or you guys. Just act normal and be a normal one.Three hours of silence are hard to come by, you say I’m useless and skinny what so ever. Cry bitch , thats what you always do.

From my liver, spills water- and blood. I’m long ago dead, both separated.

Fucking aunties and uncles, who ask about shit I don’t really want to answer. “How’ re your grades” this kind of hypocrites asking this kind of shit when their child’s in Raffles. Fuck, shut up. I could have went there, I picked not to. Screw all the dinner time shit, just eat. Make a big fuss when I simply forgot to call you to the dinner table for dinner. Can’t you be more awake and just come and eat? Fuck all those Chinese styled manners. Grand’s even worst, make a big fuss when I chew the tip of my chopsticks. Lecture me for a fucking hour.

Friends, i never had a proper good ones.Weren’t close to Primary school friends after getting my insanely high PSLE score , which was much unexpected. Secondary school friends either, no one really bothered. I don’t kick the ball, play stupid computer games. I didn’t really have close secondary friends either. Perhaps its because I left early, two years too early. But they’ll never ask me out along with them, huh. Ironic, sticking so close to me when they need help.

Welcome , laugh at how fucked up my life is.

Friends, work, school.

Yeah , what are they?

For years, you sat under the bhodhi tree and thought.-You’re starting to doze off under the shade, now a fruit came down and broke your balls into two. In the midst of bleary concussion, you forgot what your mum looked like and married her. After she died crucified to a bamboo stick, you opened up the Pandora’s box and let Ill Dates(a hope which is like always, screwed) as well as Richard “Dickhead” J. McDonald go free. Soon, as you were bathing you thought of an idea and hopped around with an erection on, screaming into everyone’s ear: Eureka!

-extract taken from http://thatmatt.wordpress.com/ (matthew)

yea. Oh wells. Thank me matthew for advertising your insane amount of visits blog. blah. His style of language is probably one of those i can't and won't use. Oh wells. It ain't that bad to throw yourself into lite at times.

Oh wells.
Fuck.
Hw not done
stuffs not done
It's almost 9.
I'm tired.
now what?

yea.
My mind's a blank.
Went to study
Well. didn't study much but ended up playing basketball.
Players include me, pam, lk, qixing.

Well. Blah blah
Lazy elaborate. But that's about it.
Came home. Damn tired.
Keep dozing off but i still used the computer anyways

Now to the next part of what i'm going to do to my computer.
I'm trying to make my OS Emulator work.
Yea i WANT to make it work and i hope that it works. If it does. Wee. I love myself. But if it doesn't. Fuck. damn sian again

Blah. Let's see.
Show & Share in about 3day's time
Haven't finish the video.
It kinda keeps slipping off my mind. I guess i'm off to complete the rest of it.
oh wells. May post again later. See how

yea.
everything works.
Well. more or less to the way i want it to work.

But the way i make it work
is so different i just can't stand it.
Like.

My Windows Logo key doesn't bring up a menu.
Instead it's called the "Super" key which is used in other commands.
Stupid as it is, it's useful. but. Ah. It just gets on my nerves. Seems like i really need one month or so to totally get used to this.

Oh wells. oh wells.
off to my revision.
I think i may have developed a little interest in basketball.

hmm.
I don't like the lazy me
I don't like the kaobei me.
I don't like the sleepy me
I don't like the easily-irritated me
I don't like the wild-imagination me
I don't like the i-think-i-know-it me
I don't like the weak me
I don't like the me who tries to hide it all
I don't like the me who thinks too much
I don't really like the me who takes everything so realistically.
I don't really like the me who loses concentration easily.
I don't really like the me who hates him
I don't really like the me who gets jealous over materialistic items
I don't really like the me who gets jealous over girls
I don't really like the me who boast unnecessarily.
I don't really like the me who is indecisive.
I don't really like the me who takes things in to my own hands
I don't really like the me who holds grudges.
I quite like the me who can be me no matter what
I quite like the me who can hide away his emotions
I quite like the me who didn't much cared about anything
I quite like the me who can be interested in computer
I quite like the me who doesn't treats gender that seriously.
I quite like the me who cared about other people
However.
I do not really think that there is one exact point that i really like about myself.

But it doesn't matter.
This is me.
Even if i hate it,
I don't have the intention to change it.

Blah.
Just cut my hair.
Quite short.
Since it was quite long.
The conversation btw be and the barber went to the usual side of me saying
"anything lah anything lah"
back to the same point
I don't give a damn if i don't look good.
I just don't wanna look like an idiot.

yep.
officially migrated from XP to Ubuntu[linux]

For people who don't know what it is...
Linux is a Unix-like computer operating system. Linux is one of the most prominent examples of free software and open source development: typically all underlying source code can be freely modified, used, and redistributed by anyone.
-extract taken from wikipedia

Yep it ain't anything new. Neither is it anything advance. But in anycase. Having a Linux System is a sibeh nice logo to show that you're a geek. LOL. Okay that aside. One of the main reasons of why i switched to Linux is partly because that i failed to do so last time as i was too inexperience with OS and stuffs.

Now older and better equipped with konwledge that i have no idea would be of any use. But oh wells. Another reason is that i hate microsoft.
I mean. They just frigging promised too much and delivered too little. Vista totally failed and disappointed me.

Hence i embarked on a Journey to my new OS.

I chose Ubuntu over SUSE and Fedora Project because well. It had a better reputation. It's more stable and more over it's the one that i tried to use the other time. So well. Here goes.

After that night of ranting.

I got my Ubuntu Hardy 8.04 to boot up and run pretty smoothly. I got a smack in the face with all the new GUI and got pretty much stuck with how i'm supposed to get everything back to how i use to operate my desktop. Even though i hate Windows, it IS the OS that i've been using since the time i've gotten contact with a computer.

Yea. Linux pose a great challenge. It has a totally different way of Hierarchy folder management. I got pretty much lost within the new world of OS. First off, in other to be able to install stuffs and programs smoothly, you use something which you call the
"Terminal"
which is similar to
"Command Prompt"
In Windows.
Well, it pretty much looked the same, but the syntax which it operates by is totally different.

For example.
echo@
cd c:\zero\installer.exe

is probably what you type in command prompt (well, i can't rmb well but it's what it looks like some how

However, in Linux
#sudo apt-get-install.123456

Yep. something like that.
Frigging different. Rmb how Explorer works? Yea, you open up my computer. But here in Linux. You go to a place called
"Home Folder"
Where by you get greeted by infamiliar file extensions.
Oh wells. It took me one night to get used to how everything works. Today is the second day. Yea, more or less i like how it works. It's slightly difficult. The programs are slightly hard to find due to low availability. But yea. It's good all-round. At least i'm able to do my work.
As for the games. We'll just think about those another time.

So basically.
Here's how my desktop looks like for the moment.

Yea Msn.
Have to use another version of course. Skinned it pretty well. Transparency options at finger tips.



Zoomed out view of desktop
Well, there's 3workspaces. Since that's all i need for the moment.
1 for doing what i do.
1 for music n background stuffs
1 for msn

Well, it can support up to 16workspaces at the same time anyways. So i won't really have to worry that the OS can't create that kind of pleasure, it's just whether my CPU can withstand the pressure from the workload anot lol.

Oh yea, one thing good about linux is that the kernel is reaaaallllyyy compact. I turn on my computer. After everything has loaded. (meaning after that "load bar" till the login screen) At the login screen. I type in User n Pass. Poop, 5~10secs and everything is loaded.

Shutdown
Poop.
5~10secs, the com shuts down. Pretty cool.

well, i'm also greeted by a wall of desktop effects which. Yea, it's pretty fun but pretty much useless. Well, i like it and it doesn't consume much CPU power so i'll just leave it be.

Blah. In anycase. I config my sys to dual-boot XP and Linux. Meaning that i can boot into either XP or Linux. So that if i need a XP specific program i'll still be able to run it properly.
But XP feels like it's a machine hogger after i used Linux. Oh wells. Whatever. I'll just use it to play Wolfteam. lol.

Blahs. Watever, even after hours of using. There are still stuffs i'm not used to. Back to exploring. tata~

Say bye to windows.
Say hi to Linux and a whole lot of >.< situations

I wanted to complain about how fucking long it took to partition 332GB from my new 500GB SATA II HDD when it just suddenly fade off.

Seemingly that it has completed it's partition. It went into a black screen mode with nothing on it. nothing to show that it's running, functioning or just rotting.

Yes.
I told people that.
"eh gtg go install new sys"

but i suddenly realised that there's this school laptop beside me just rotting for over a week. Well, i don't play that much and don't have that kind of urge to just turn it on for the sake of it to be on.

Well. What i can see now is that LED light blinking like crazy. Seemingly at work yet i don't know what's going on with it.
Maybe i shouldn't have used the BETA version. But who cares. The updates to the BETA version is just too tempting for me to try. I think i'm going to stick to linux afterall. Well, that is if i realised that if linux is lousier than windows which is highly impossible. I will change back to XP. Depends. I'll stick to Linux. That's my verdict for now.

Other than a faster and more reliable system. I think. I'm probably going to relearn most of the stuffs that i've known to date. And probably the softwares that i'm going to use is going to drastically change as well.

AH fuck it. I hate how my blank monitor screen doesn't shows if it's installing Linux on it anot.

Oh btw. Linux is just another operating system if you don't know.
I chose Ubuntu over SUSE and urh. Fedora because....
well. I just trust Ubuntu more.
Can't wait to try out Beryl and Compix Fusion
I wonder what wonders it'll do to my desktop. well. that apart. The installation is taking painfully long. Can't stand it. Blah. blah. Blah.

It's been about 10mins since the installation started. Can't expect it to be that fast but at least show me something right. SHOW ME SOMETHING YOU FUCKING STUPID COMPUTER.

Blah. I see that the processor is runing. Or is it just hanging over there. Damn. I seem to repeat myself like crazy but that's all in my mind right now.

Oh i realised something damn cool
DAMN FUCKING COOL.
I totally diaoed.
My screen just went to standby mode.
It's still stuck at the "resizing partition"
Stuck at 0%.
I wonder if it's just the bar problem or if it's REALLY stuck there. Oh fuck it.
oh. This is really pissing me off. Blah. It's been about. 20mins.

blah. I'm going to spam here until something actually happens. Oh dammit. I should have just repartition the whole HDD. Which means formatting it. But my animes are in there! i can'tbear to do that. But this is just taking too long. hais. Damn. It's times like these that i feel really noob and pretty much helpless because there's basically nothing i can do about it.

In anycase. It SHOULD work. It HAS to work. If not i can only curse my bad luck for it not working.

okay. It's finally done
It's now installing.
And partition formatting.
blah blah blah
It's going to work. It's going to work well.
I'm going to end it here. Too lazy to type anymore le.
I shall stare at the stupid screen.
It's now stuck at 5%.
Oh. did i mention that i hate waiting for things to install.
Esp when it's slow. -.-

Yep.
Dug out the pictures that has remained stagnant in my stupid phone.

From stuffs dated pretty way back till now. I realised that i don't really take photos that oftenly. But oh wells. At least it serves as some kind of memory.

oh yes.
i have to post this.
I mean. seriously.
FUCK YOU GUYSSSSSS


Look at the fucking amount of destruction they've caused to my ONCE-CLEAN table. oh wtf.


yea, the exciting match btw AHS n Zhong Zheng.


here's the place i play table tennis at.
Not impressive, at least it's kind of. Warm.
(well, we play in the night usually anyways,that day abit diff)


OH. NO NO YOU DIDN'T SEE THIS.



yep. I saw this on the bus.
It doesn't make much sense.
But it amuse me anyways.



aim properly
there's a bug for you to shoot. -.-


i get bored in class.


say cheese?

not only girls duh

here's my share. =/


fantastic bus service.
7 in a line =.=


ever wonder what micah eats?
yes.
Today. After PE.
Everyone is so wtfed by it.

What's his explaination?
"you know those western food right, i wan try do something like that. But the auntie keep adding beans instead. then become like this"

AH. =.=
The pictures is enough to cover for the post. hah.

wanted to say something.
but i forgot what.
Due to an impending problem i'm currently looking at.

Or rather, it's already became a problem.

What is it?
Emo-ness.
People cutting themselves.

According to Zero's Theory.
You always have a choice
But most people choose the easier way out.
Is cutting yourself easier than other ways?
Yes.
The first blade is the dilema.
The following are addictive.
Why do i say that.
1)Compared to telling others your problem.
2)Focusing your attention on school work.
3)Giving your all in other areas.
4)Cutting yourself.

1 - I do not want to trouble others
2 - My problems are stopping me from doing that
3 - I can't think of anything else
4 - why not?

That's what i mean.
you see. if a person wants to be pessimistic, no matter how good the world is for him/her, it's a world that he/she thinks he can't live in.
if a person wants to be optimistic, no matter how bad the world came crashing down on him, he would want to continue living to see the brighter parts of life.
It's all a matter of choice.

and then again.
how do you know that it's wrong?
even if you're hurt by it. Does it mean that it's wrong? Do you mean that exercising is a wrong thing to do since it causes you to be fatigue? We all know that exercising is a good thing. It's just if we choose to do it or not.

however, life presents us with many fucking problems. Many by which we have no experience on. Depending on the result, we don't know if it's right or wrong.
which means, it's just what you choose, what you think it's right. What is beneficial

In anycase.
Injuring your own body,
Inflicting pain on the outside,
To eliminate the pain on the inside,
Is deemed as idiotic.

Whatever, if people read this. And still don't want to change. Turn towards god or whatever. Just stop being a fucking moron.
For people who thinks that.
I shall not trouble anyone. I CAN HANDLE IT MYSELF.
When you obviously fucking can't..
rmb this

"You can hide your emotions, but not your feelings"

whatever.
This emo-ness is pulling the world down with it.

QUOTE OF THE DAY
BY KIAMENG:

"walau. Why my bag so small!
A hardworking student needs a luggage"

FOR SOME REASONS.
I FIND IT SIBEH AMUSING LOL.

so anyways.
Didn't post for a few days.

Why?
Also don't know. Feeling pekchek larh

BUT TODAY'S APRIL'S FOOL.
How can a fool like me not post on this day?!

Anyways, i sent to alot of people this chunk of MSG.


"Ashiteiru.
Nante ne. Usou da you"

Of course. It's jap.
Of course, many people know the first word.
Of course, none know what's the rest.
Of course, i shall tell you guys now.
Of course, it's to make you feel stupid
Of course, it's to make me feel clever.
Of course, you'll be like huh?

So here's the translation
For those people who guessed like wtf.
Aw too bad.

I love you.
ya right...
It's a lie.

WELL.
I WOULD EXPECT ALL TO GUESS IT WRONGLY.
HAHAHAHA.
Of course, with the exception of darren. =.=

so oh wells.
April's Fool is boring in singapore.
I mean, whatever you do.
Eh, P-U-N-I-S-H-M-E-N-T AWAITS YOU.

So well. Didn't do much.
Couldn't do much
Don't feel like doing much.

Anyways, Neo ah Neo, have you ever thought why you always can't seem to control the class? Here's a simple reason why.
You S-U-C-K at class management.
And one thing.
Why is the students 5years back and currently so different? Why are those people so obedient in the past and not now?

- New Media
- Globalisation (forgot how to spell)
Most importantly this
-Green forms are given out ever so oftenly that it lost it's value.

I mean.
When you're a toddler.
Parents: "DON'T LISTEN I WHACK YOU AH"
Yourself: "AH OKAY OKAY"

But if now.
If they use it too oftenly.
Parents: "DON'T LISTEN I WHACK YOU AH"
Yourself: "COME LORH. I-CARE."

But oh whatever.
I finally found an idea for a logo. I'm going to stick to it and not change liao. Look forward. "i hope it'll be quite nice"

In school. Nothing much happened. Well, other than that i'm holding myself back from fucking the teachers upside down. Oh no. Khoo Khoo Khoo.
You really irritate me today.
You said it so fast that i didn't catch what you say
I asked other people.
they don't know what to do.
I asked
"what are we supposed to do ah?"
You answered"
"YA, WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO"
In that !$*#@ tone.
Yea alright. I've confirmed my instincts once again that your smile is fake. Fuck it for the sake of your job.

Ah. Talking about instincts.
I really love mine.
Just 2days ago.
I just had the feeling to set my time 3mins faster. Of course, for no obvious reason
and tat little action of mine
Saved me from being late today.
I went up 89 at 6.45
Reached pasir ris at 7.10
Mrt go off at 7.15.
Yes i've made it in time.
On the dot when the music stop and the 2nd bell is going to ring. It sounds like a stupid story but. hey. IT'S TRUE. Oh. I so love myself. The days which i forget to bring my stuffs are usually the times when the teacher suddenly don't need them or never come.
When i forget to do my work usually the teacher will extend the deadline or nv come.

blah.
blah
blah.
i want to sleep.
but.
there are stuffs that i want to do
I need a one week holiday