The future is undefined

I had a very interesting line of though before I fell asleep last night. But I just couldn’t remember what it was. Hence I’m typing here to try to some how recover my memories.

Well.. If I didn’t remember it wrongly. I was thinking on the topic of.

What if?

I think that was the premise of my thoughts. I think I was thinking through some stuffs and I thought of, what if i had done that? What if I’ve chosen something else rather than that? What if my interest was something else rather than computing?

Then as I drifted deeper into my thoughts. I think I ended coming up with a conclusion. Something like, regret ain’t the decision you’ve made, rejoice over the fact that you actually made one, and learn from it.  Like, that’s the only way we can learn and grow isn’t it?

Without actually doing something that is wrong/bad, you won’t know what is right/good for you. Without the prior experience, we wouldn’t really understand our own decisions. For example, we study because we learnt that if you don’t, you will get very lousy results, and other bad things will follow.

For example, we eat because we get hungry, and that feeling of pain is something that we want to avoid, hence we eat to survive, which is the right thing to do. I think that it’s only by repeating mistakes over and over again, that we actually grow. Well, according to that, it just means that, the more wrong things that we do, the more right we’re going to get in the future.

Another example is watching TV too much. Like, no matter what our parents tell us, unless we actually experience the thing itself, we would never understand why it’s bad to watch too much TV. It’s only when our eyesight got fucked. It’s only when we realized we’ve wasted our precious time on it, then you’ll really do it because you know it’s right.

Well, I think the main point of me saying this is.

Don’t condemn yourself just because you’ve made a wrong choice.

And so another thought popped up in my head. If that was true, it means that our parents, ancestors and such must have committed those mistakes that they tell us not to do. Which, in perfect sense means that we really should listen to them as much as we could. I mean, our lives have evolved over so many years so we should probably know by now what’s good or bad for us. So why do we continue to do stupid things. Why do we continue to fuck ourselves up?

Well, actually I probably started thinking about this because someone asked me.

Why does it seem that, every 5 years later, we’ll find our current selves immature and stupid?

My answer to that was.

Well, that’s because we keep growing. As we get to know of more things, better things, our world expand, then we’ll realize that our world was so small and stupid. We realize that there are better things in life worth living for. I guess that’s how we grow, along with our desire for more. More of everything.
(this wasn’t really what I say but almost… )

But when I got home. I thought about it again. Is that all?